My Cancer: The Will To Live & Smile

 
There is beauty in a woman whose confidence comes from experience. She is not afraid to take risks knowing if she should fall she can pick herself back up and move forward.
 
Many of us judge others over small or bigger issues but don’t admit it, and we often hear the typical clichés like "I don’t mean to judge", "who am I to judge?" and "I am not one to judge".

The refusal to judge is considered admirable, as it demonstrates that you are a tolerant and progressive person open to all points of view.

Today I needed to reflect back and take a pride in how far I have come.

Before turning 30, my worst fear was confirmed when I did my first mammography. I was diagnosed with breast cancer. Then a few months later I was diagnosed with another in my uterus.

When someone is diagnosed with cancer or any life-threatening illness, the focus needs to be not just on your physical state, but on your emotional state as well, and my emotional state was anything but good during this period.

BUT when I published my story, I got some negative judgmental comments about my life and my photos while those people didn’t even think for a moment that they don’t know anything about me.

I know you can’t please everyone. No matter what you are, who you are or how you look, these types of people will always criticize. It’s not so much that they don’t like you, it’s that they don’t like themselves and this causes them to try to put everyone else down around themselves .. They just can’t be happy for others because they’re unhappy with themselves. Because if they were happy why would they want to make others feel crap about themselves.

 

I’m no perfect and I'm no angel, maybe I’m a perfectionist, because of my passion towards becoming the best that I can be.

I am always asked how cancer has changed my life, and my answer is simply this; in many ways, cancer was a gift which made me think, smile and cry!!

In the beginning it was incredibly hard and confusing. I didn’t know what was going to happen and I was very scared. You’re forced to really think about life and death and everything in between. It was terrifying. But slowly and surely as I learned more, as I educated myself, I felt better. It forced me to think about who I am and who I want to be.

It has given me clarity of purpose, and that is to live my life smiling. It has given me clarity of conscience, to have the best attitude each and every day.

Soon I will be 32 years old, and today I was reminded that I'm a fighter, maybe I'm extremely tired but I won't give up on me. Today I choose to smile, today I choose to face the difficult and shitty situations in my life with a smile and positive attitude.

So embrace what you want to be and ignore the people who have a problem with it!!

XOXO

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